What I see.

Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 1:24 am

This is what I see the world's coming to, to people like me. One's who have mental disabilities and everything. I was talking to my friend, Mentalpuff, about it.

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
life aint perfect

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
It's like a game that continues playing itself

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even after you turn it off

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You lose all your chances

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and it's game over for you

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but, it'll sitll go on for others, even as the game is turned off

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and that's why I don't find this basis fair

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
If people were destined to find salvation in the afterlife

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then why can't we have a littlepiece of it in the real life?

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Why do people shun us out because of the way we think..

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because of problems we've had before, they never listen

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they always force some s**t down our throat going 'Well, you could've changed and done something about it'

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
If they could only understand, if they could only walk a mile in our shoes, so they can see the difference in what they think, than in what's really true

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
then maybe this world would be kinder towards people who have disabilities, and can't help how they are

MentalPuff says:
i dont really believe in god..

MentalPuff says:
so cant really say this is some sorta test or anything

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
The ones with the disabilities aren't the problems, it's the peoples who take us out of their life, and push us into a different society

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
Just because one thing doesn't go right in their life, doesn't mean that we have to stop moving because we can't see that light at the end of the tunnel

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no matter how long the trip would be

MentalPuff says:
i dunno

MentalPuff says:
alot of things went wrong lol

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
Still though

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They could have found something through this

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Not toss us aside, just because 'we changed'

MentalPuff says:
i thought i would

MentalPuff says:
just more lies lol

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or we're not 'the same person'

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
Just because we can't be what we were, doesn't mean everyone else around us has to change

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and become an even bigger problem towards us, just putting more pressure onto us

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This is why most people go insane.

MentalPuff says:
true that

MentalPuff says:
dont you hate it when people know exactly what you mean

MentalPuff says:
but still act like they dont

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
I know some people that do that

MentalPuff says:
yeah

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And it makes me angry

MentalPuff says:
it freaking makes me wanna slap them

MentalPuff says:
they look at you like you're insane

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
cause I can see when they're lying just by looking at their eyes

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
Yeah.

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And they're probably right, too. Which makes you even madder.

MentalPuff says:
Like they're too great to understand any problems you present to them

Never thought a rumor would ruin my moonlight says:
That's why only money talks in this world now.. not people.

Noone even wants to understand anymore.

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Joe · Post by **Joe** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 2:34 am

I don't know what any of that says its like random AIM talk.

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Cicero · Post by **Cicero** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 6:17 am

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Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 11:20 am

As I said, noone understands anymore.

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Cicero · Post by **Cicero** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 11:25 am

Well that post was bit cryptic. Your setting yourself up to feel as if the world is out to get you.

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Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 11:31 am

Well, they are.

The people I love are shunning me out of society because I have a mental disease, and even though I'm rid of it, I think it's coming back, because noone will believe me. I keep getting shunned from families I've grown attached to, and they're not being very Christian-like to me either. I'm being told to disappear for a few years concerning safety, but not once was I told I was forgiven, I was anything. I was never given a pat on the back when I got out of therapy, instead it was 'well, you still can't talk to her for a few years' So, she ends up leaving me, and I'm left with nothing. I guess that's my thanks for becoming a Christian. Even though I already got rid of my mental problem.

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Cicero · Post by **Cicero** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 11:43 am

No, the world is not out to get you. Its a really bad period in your life. It will get better, as much as you might not believe it, it will get better.

And, It can always be worse than it is.

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Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 12:23 pm

It's a day-by-day cycle. Parents hate me. They blame ME if something goes wrong, but my brother's the perfect one. Always has been. ..Now I sound like John complaining about Jesus. x.X

But either way, I had a mental disease. One thing is, I can't ever fully get rid of it. I'm at a point where it's gone for 3 years, then BAM. Relapse. And I will be allowed to talk to her again in 3 years.. So, I'm just going to build up all this trust with her parents just to blow it all out the window? I guess it is best I never talk to her or her friend again. But, their parents don't have to shun me out, telling me to disappear.

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Red Squirrel · Post by **Red Squirrel** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 5:05 pm

Does sound like a hard period. Get UO and play it, it's like drugs, you get so addicted you forget about everything else. You also get to kill stuff with a sword, bow, or magery.

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Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 6:33 pm

I should. You should give me a link to it sometime, and I'll set it up and stuffs, and you can teach me howta play or somethin'.

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sintekk · Post by **sintekk** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 6:35 pm

UO is for people that have hundreds upon hundreds of hours to waste on building a house and crafting chairs, all the while avoiding evil pk'ers that want to steal your chairs...

...sounds perfect for you, Shinizo

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Cicero · Post by **Cicero** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 6:43 pm

I'd love to craft chairs.

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Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 6:53 pm

Lol, it does, doesn't it? I wanna craft chairs, and steal other peopels chairs while I laugh at them!

HAR HAR HAR, I STOLD THE CHAIR OF DA HAXXORZ!

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Red Squirrel · Post by **Red Squirrel** » Tue Jul 05, 2005 10:22 pm

The best is the minute you loose your young status you can go to fel (people can kill you there) and you get killed in seconds. then you build your char and go back and kill that person. I beefed up Red Squirrel my warrior so I'm ready to go kill that dude some time, or I might use my bard and send a few dragons after him.

I hope there will be another wedding, that was great, people summoning creatures in church, some random wyvern decides to spawn near, ah man it was great.

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Shinizo · Post by **Shinizo** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 12:32 am

Gorilla..

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000 · Post by **000** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 12:34 am

Dig it.

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